Full term. Zoe Lu is now concerned full term. WOW! I am not sure how I feel now. Every day seems different, in fact, every hour seems different. Physically, let's see, I am tired. Very tired. I am hungry. Very hungry. Emotionally, well, I am a bit moody, especially when things don't work how I want / need them to work. I have little patience (but, that is normal). I just hate, loathe really, waiting.
I am ready. I don't want to think about what labor will be like anymore, I just want to do it. I want to see Zoe Lu's face and stop having to just imagine it. I want my family to get here. I want to focus on just being a mother. I want to start a family. I am ready.
I am not one of those women who will miss being pregnant. I am sure of this. I have enjoyed parts of pregnancy, such as: feeling her kick; growing closer to my man as we talk about our upcoming addition; how people "care" about me; eating a lot; and a few other things. But, honestly, I have to say that I will love having her in my arms and out of my uterus. I will love to lay down on my stomach and having someone walk on my back. I will love to have a surfboard under my chest and to paddle for hours. I will rejoice when I don't have this metallic taste in my mouth all day. I will enjoy seeing my toes. It is not that I didn't like being pregnant, it is just that I really like not being pregnant.
I head to San Jose Thursday, December 1st. I will be living there, well, in Heredia, while I wait for Zoe to come. And, surprisingly, I have this calm internal peace inside me about all of this. I will be with two great friends for a few days, then my parents arrive a few days later. Then, we wait for the big day! Going away from home seems poignant to me now. I once dreaded the idea of having to pack up for an unknown amount of time, to live in an unknown house, and to wait for the unknown delivery to come. But, now, I am excited to go away, do my job and bring my baby back home. I am ready to leave all of my normal daily work stuff in one place, have Zoe, and then return ready to start this new life.
I just am ready now!
My next doctor's appointment is December 8th.
The next full moon is December 10th.
I hope for a delivery date of December 11th.
To Be Continued. . .
